MLWF Day 5

This is my fifth day in my life without food.

I did it! I spent the entire birthday party last night saying no thank you to a very attentive serving staff over and over and over again. AND I drank Pellegrino with lime all night...and it was F**KING hard.

Tempted by the sliders, micro tacos and of course fried risotto balls stuffed with cheese I said no. I could live on appetizers, no really, and yet I said no.

Then the buffet was served and OMG did it look fantastic. I sat and watched everyone eat while I sipped on my water which the serving staff kept full the entire evening. Everyone was so worried about eating in front of me like I was going to cry or something. Or maybe they thought if they looked away I would snatch something from my plate and don't think that didn't cross my mind.

We left before the cake, a man can only take so much.

Thanks to the host and hostess as well as my friends there for being so concerned, all is well, I'm just HUNGRY.

It's OK though, it's been a long time since I was actually hungry, it kind of feels good. It beats piling one meal on the next hungry or not.

The behavioral therapist from the weight clinic left me voicemail during the party, just checking in on me to see if I was doing OK. It's as if he knew I was staring at amazing food and longing for that glass of wine.

But I did it, I said no thanks.