MLWF Week 23

This is the twenty third week in my life without food.

I know I've been away from the blog for the past few weeks but never very far from the "project". I have been assessing what to do during the last phase of this process and I feel pretty good about where I am. I am not finished but I am certainly in a better place than I was on April 13th.

I am approaching food using a much more realistic view these days, I know what I should and should not eat but I have determined I can eat anything but if I eat something on the "should not" list something else has to go. It sounds simple and I know it's all about balance but I have never been good at that but it feels different this time. I am taking a much more realistic approach and most importantly, I am not beating myself up should I fall of the food wagon.

I had a great one on one meeting with my fat class therapist this past week. He is helping my decide the what next phase of my plan will look like. Starting in October I am moving into what they call the maintenance phase of the "project" even though I have some additional weight to lose. I will still be attending the same class and basically doing all the same things, just beginning the process of bringing eating food back into my life.

Every since my doctor told me he wanted me to lose another 30 lbs. or so I have been fixated on that number and have forgotten my original goal of getting my waist size below 40 inches. Must refocus, must move forward, must keep going. You would think that after 5 months of working on this project it would get easier, well is doesn't, not from my perspective anyway. I will get there because I know I can and because I have all the support I need. I am a very lucky man.