This is the one hundred sixty forth day in my life without food.
Excellent, I just realized I can't count either, it's just been 164 days it just seems like it's been over 200.
Just got back to my desk from heating up my porridge. Walked past a skinny dude in my office and he is eating a hot dog from 7 Eleven with chili and cheese for lunch. I'm eating porridge and I probably just gained weight just walking past his hot dog and looking at it.
Keeping better records this week but still not being a saint. I am simply doing the best I can and that is all I can do.
Just found out at work that I have to fly with a client on the San Francisco 49ers team plane next weekend to Atlanta. Are you kidding me? I've only had the honor of this trip once before but there is so much food on that plane it's like a cruise ship with wings. Multiple meals, snacks, candy bars and oh don't for get the ice cream sundae cart. At least there is no booze on the flight, I am more inclined to make better decisions without booze around.
The weekend is here again and I plan on working out, playing with my puppies and staying out of trouble, within reason that is. I need a bigger weight loss this week in fat class, that would help. I better work on that.
Friday, September 24, 2010
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
MLWF Day 162
This is the one hundred sixty second in my life without food.
OK, I may have to change the name of this blog soon, I am eating a little but so much less than I was before and it is still paying off.
Went to fat class last night and I lost a little over 1 lb. Slowly but surely I am losing the weight but I decided while sitting there listening to the fat guru that I needed to re-focus and just get the rest of this weight loss over with. This morning I starting entering my calories into my iPhone again. It's a small step but it helps me keep it all front of mind.
In class last night we did a Cost/Benefit analysis of losing weight or not losing weight. My comment was that it was easier not to lose weight because there was no effort involved and in fact I called in "mindless living". Very common in the South, if you don't think about something bad it will go away, well it doesn't.
Losing weight is work and it's hard work. Eating and drinking anything I want not so hard. But, given the health alternatives I know I am doing the right thing for me.
I have tremendous support, I am so lucky. Forward I go!
OK, I may have to change the name of this blog soon, I am eating a little but so much less than I was before and it is still paying off.
Went to fat class last night and I lost a little over 1 lb. Slowly but surely I am losing the weight but I decided while sitting there listening to the fat guru that I needed to re-focus and just get the rest of this weight loss over with. This morning I starting entering my calories into my iPhone again. It's a small step but it helps me keep it all front of mind.
In class last night we did a Cost/Benefit analysis of losing weight or not losing weight. My comment was that it was easier not to lose weight because there was no effort involved and in fact I called in "mindless living". Very common in the South, if you don't think about something bad it will go away, well it doesn't.
Losing weight is work and it's hard work. Eating and drinking anything I want not so hard. But, given the health alternatives I know I am doing the right thing for me.
I have tremendous support, I am so lucky. Forward I go!
Monday, September 20, 2010
MLWF Week 23
This is the twenty third week in my life without food.
I know I've been away from the blog for the past few weeks but never very far from the "project". I have been assessing what to do during the last phase of this process and I feel pretty good about where I am. I am not finished but I am certainly in a better place than I was on April 13th.
I am approaching food using a much more realistic view these days, I know what I should and should not eat but I have determined I can eat anything but if I eat something on the "should not" list something else has to go. It sounds simple and I know it's all about balance but I have never been good at that but it feels different this time. I am taking a much more realistic approach and most importantly, I am not beating myself up should I fall of the food wagon.
I had a great one on one meeting with my fat class therapist this past week. He is helping my decide the what next phase of my plan will look like. Starting in October I am moving into what they call the maintenance phase of the "project" even though I have some additional weight to lose. I will still be attending the same class and basically doing all the same things, just beginning the process of bringing eating food back into my life.
Every since my doctor told me he wanted me to lose another 30 lbs. or so I have been fixated on that number and have forgotten my original goal of getting my waist size below 40 inches. Must refocus, must move forward, must keep going. You would think that after 5 months of working on this project it would get easier, well is doesn't, not from my perspective anyway. I will get there because I know I can and because I have all the support I need. I am a very lucky man.
I know I've been away from the blog for the past few weeks but never very far from the "project". I have been assessing what to do during the last phase of this process and I feel pretty good about where I am. I am not finished but I am certainly in a better place than I was on April 13th.
I am approaching food using a much more realistic view these days, I know what I should and should not eat but I have determined I can eat anything but if I eat something on the "should not" list something else has to go. It sounds simple and I know it's all about balance but I have never been good at that but it feels different this time. I am taking a much more realistic approach and most importantly, I am not beating myself up should I fall of the food wagon.
I had a great one on one meeting with my fat class therapist this past week. He is helping my decide the what next phase of my plan will look like. Starting in October I am moving into what they call the maintenance phase of the "project" even though I have some additional weight to lose. I will still be attending the same class and basically doing all the same things, just beginning the process of bringing eating food back into my life.
Every since my doctor told me he wanted me to lose another 30 lbs. or so I have been fixated on that number and have forgotten my original goal of getting my waist size below 40 inches. Must refocus, must move forward, must keep going. You would think that after 5 months of working on this project it would get easier, well is doesn't, not from my perspective anyway. I will get there because I know I can and because I have all the support I need. I am a very lucky man.
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
MLWF Week 20
This is the twentieth week in my life without food.
Jumped on the scale last night (what a visual) and I had lost a pound. Down is still better than up but it's really slowed down and I have to fight every thought about giving up, something I am not going to do anyway.
Last night in fat class we looked a food labels which believe it or not I always look at when I am grocery shopping. We were told to focus on two things mostly on those labels, calories per serving and number of servings in the package. The assumption is that maybe not at one sitting but you will probably eat the entire package of what ever it is. A serving size is 18 pretzels, 14 crackers, 1 oz of cheese, half a coke, really, those packaging experts really do a number on us people with weight issues and that is part of the plan. I have to be the watchdog for myself, no one else will be.
Most people in my class are winding down their weight loss but there are still plenty of us there. After all this is complete we were told to try to keep our calories to 1800-2000 per day. Calories, calories, calories, that has to be my focus no matter what I eat. I can have bread and butter but that will eat up about a fourth of my calories for the day, that sucks.
I remain focused but my eyes are wandering, I just need the strength to see this through to the end...of my weight loss not my life, that is the point of all of this.
Jumped on the scale last night (what a visual) and I had lost a pound. Down is still better than up but it's really slowed down and I have to fight every thought about giving up, something I am not going to do anyway.
Last night in fat class we looked a food labels which believe it or not I always look at when I am grocery shopping. We were told to focus on two things mostly on those labels, calories per serving and number of servings in the package. The assumption is that maybe not at one sitting but you will probably eat the entire package of what ever it is. A serving size is 18 pretzels, 14 crackers, 1 oz of cheese, half a coke, really, those packaging experts really do a number on us people with weight issues and that is part of the plan. I have to be the watchdog for myself, no one else will be.
Most people in my class are winding down their weight loss but there are still plenty of us there. After all this is complete we were told to try to keep our calories to 1800-2000 per day. Calories, calories, calories, that has to be my focus no matter what I eat. I can have bread and butter but that will eat up about a fourth of my calories for the day, that sucks.
I remain focused but my eyes are wandering, I just need the strength to see this through to the end...of my weight loss not my life, that is the point of all of this.
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