This is the one hundred ninth day in my life without food.
Yesterday was quite the challenge. I've been craving a hamburger for a while and I got to work yesterday only to remember that it was my company's annual BBQ at lunch time. I didn't want to seem like I wasn't a "team player" plus I didn't go last year so I went.
I sat and watched as people ate burgers (beef,veggie,salmon), hot dogs, hot links, sausages, orzo salad, slaw, potato salad, chips all ending with an It's It ice cream sandwich and there I sat with my Diet Coke stealing M&Ms for my friend. It wasn't much fun for me.
After work and at the last minute I ended up going with my manager to take a client out for a glass of wine, a cheese platter, tomato tart and what are some of the best pomme frites in the city of San Francisco. I'm no angel, I drank some wine and watched everyone else eat.
I have strength but this is ridiculous. Damn I wanted some of those fries.
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
MLWF Day 108
This is the one hundred eighth day in my life without food.
Imagine my surprise when after taking a week "off" from "the project" the scale said I lost another 2.4 lbs.
While I didn't go hog wild crazy last week but I did eat in restaurants four times but I made better choices. In all cases I looked past what I really wanted on the menu and ordered what I thought would be reasonable and it worked out.
I guess "the project" is paying off, even though I am really really craving a GOOD hamburger. I miss different things in different weeks but that's what I miss this week. The smells of Summer are all around and I can smell someone barbecuing a mile away, I haven't invited myself to a strangers BBQ but I've thought about it.
What I learned in fat class: the body doesn't change unless you do something it does not know. We had a fitness expert as a guest speaker last night and while she said many things I have heard before what I took away was I need variety. It really is important to change up your workout routine because your body gets used to doing the same thing over and over so for max benefit mix it up. WHEN I work out I tend to do the same thing every time, I am going to make some changes and see what happens.
I've lost a total of 59.8 lbs. but I still have a looooong way to go. I get a little down sometimes when I think about it but I am just taking every day as it comes. Wish my luck and hide your hamburger.
Imagine my surprise when after taking a week "off" from "the project" the scale said I lost another 2.4 lbs.
While I didn't go hog wild crazy last week but I did eat in restaurants four times but I made better choices. In all cases I looked past what I really wanted on the menu and ordered what I thought would be reasonable and it worked out.
I guess "the project" is paying off, even though I am really really craving a GOOD hamburger. I miss different things in different weeks but that's what I miss this week. The smells of Summer are all around and I can smell someone barbecuing a mile away, I haven't invited myself to a strangers BBQ but I've thought about it.
What I learned in fat class: the body doesn't change unless you do something it does not know. We had a fitness expert as a guest speaker last night and while she said many things I have heard before what I took away was I need variety. It really is important to change up your workout routine because your body gets used to doing the same thing over and over so for max benefit mix it up. WHEN I work out I tend to do the same thing every time, I am going to make some changes and see what happens.
I've lost a total of 59.8 lbs. but I still have a looooong way to go. I get a little down sometimes when I think about it but I am just taking every day as it comes. Wish my luck and hide your hamburger.
Monday, July 26, 2010
MLWF Day 106
This is the one hundred sixth day in my life without food.
Not really true this week. I kind of took a week off from "the project" but I didn't go crazy and so far haven't gained weight either. I had several commitments last week that included eating out and maybe a cocktail or two. Work lunches and birthday dinners are part of real life.
It's Monday morning and I just drank my chocolate breakfast. Back on it and feeling good.
Also went clothing shopping over the weekend. I am at the awkward in between size, not ready for the next size down but my clothes are looking a little baggy. It was fun trying on new cute shirts and pants, couple more weeks and I'll try again.
Tomorrow is weigh day and fat class. I would never share that I went off program or what they refer to as breaking the fast, that's just between you and me. They would not understand, trust me!
Not really true this week. I kind of took a week off from "the project" but I didn't go crazy and so far haven't gained weight either. I had several commitments last week that included eating out and maybe a cocktail or two. Work lunches and birthday dinners are part of real life.
It's Monday morning and I just drank my chocolate breakfast. Back on it and feeling good.
Also went clothing shopping over the weekend. I am at the awkward in between size, not ready for the next size down but my clothes are looking a little baggy. It was fun trying on new cute shirts and pants, couple more weeks and I'll try again.
Tomorrow is weigh day and fat class. I would never share that I went off program or what they refer to as breaking the fast, that's just between you and me. They would not understand, trust me!
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
MLWF Week 14
This is the fourteenth week in my life without food.
They say something becomes habit after 3 weeks so why doesn't losing weight get any easier and why don't I like to work out? It is true that the more weight I lose the more motivated I become but it is still hard to stay on track each and every day. I am simply doing the best I can.
This week the scale said down 3.8 lbs and I am very pleased. I am inching toward my goal of getting my waist size below 40...no pun intended. Down 4 inches to 42 now, I'll get there.
The next few weeks promise to be a challenge to stay on track, friends in town for a birthday celebration, next week back to Reno for Mom's 80th birthday and then back to the desert for a long weekend. I have to stay SO focused M-F and not go too crazy on the weekends, I'll get through it but only the scale will tell for sure.
It's Friday and I must get to the gym in the morning, weeks that I am manage to get my workouts in really do show at the scale.
Wish me luck...
They say something becomes habit after 3 weeks so why doesn't losing weight get any easier and why don't I like to work out? It is true that the more weight I lose the more motivated I become but it is still hard to stay on track each and every day. I am simply doing the best I can.
This week the scale said down 3.8 lbs and I am very pleased. I am inching toward my goal of getting my waist size below 40...no pun intended. Down 4 inches to 42 now, I'll get there.
The next few weeks promise to be a challenge to stay on track, friends in town for a birthday celebration, next week back to Reno for Mom's 80th birthday and then back to the desert for a long weekend. I have to stay SO focused M-F and not go too crazy on the weekends, I'll get through it but only the scale will tell for sure.
It's Friday and I must get to the gym in the morning, weeks that I am manage to get my workouts in really do show at the scale.
Wish me luck...
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
MLWF Day 94
This is the ninety fourth day in my life without food.
A half a pound a day weight loss is what I am averaging so far during "the project". The scale said 2.6 down this week. I'm happy.
In past experiences I would have given up by now having gotten on and off the wagon numerous times. This time I am cutting myself a little more slack and I start every day over. Yesterday was a good day or it wasn't but as long as I refocus everyday I am still taking in far fewer calories than I was before I started this endeavor.
What I learned in fat class: Did you know that if you weigh 150 pounds you have to take in 1500 calories a day to maintain that weight. To lose weight simply take in less than 1500 calories. Wow I was taking in a lot of calories before I started, no wonder I was fat. I see protein drinks in my future for a very long time, they are nutritious an easy way to keep the calories down. Too bad they don't come in a bacon flavor.
I survived the last few days without one tortilla chip or Oreo cookie at the office. Even though I would walk by people standing around eating the chips and they smelled so good, the chips not the people. I am pretty good as long as I don't have the first one. Past experience in dealing with stressful situations would have me grab a handful of chips and say fuck it. I had an extra shake instead, boring but it works. UGH!
Today will be a good day or it won't. I can't control that but as long as I don't have the first chip I'll be fine. Wish me luck.
A half a pound a day weight loss is what I am averaging so far during "the project". The scale said 2.6 down this week. I'm happy.
In past experiences I would have given up by now having gotten on and off the wagon numerous times. This time I am cutting myself a little more slack and I start every day over. Yesterday was a good day or it wasn't but as long as I refocus everyday I am still taking in far fewer calories than I was before I started this endeavor.
What I learned in fat class: Did you know that if you weigh 150 pounds you have to take in 1500 calories a day to maintain that weight. To lose weight simply take in less than 1500 calories. Wow I was taking in a lot of calories before I started, no wonder I was fat. I see protein drinks in my future for a very long time, they are nutritious an easy way to keep the calories down. Too bad they don't come in a bacon flavor.
I survived the last few days without one tortilla chip or Oreo cookie at the office. Even though I would walk by people standing around eating the chips and they smelled so good, the chips not the people. I am pretty good as long as I don't have the first one. Past experience in dealing with stressful situations would have me grab a handful of chips and say fuck it. I had an extra shake instead, boring but it works. UGH!
Today will be a good day or it won't. I can't control that but as long as I don't have the first chip I'll be fine. Wish me luck.
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
MLWF Week 13
This is my thirteenth week in my life without food.
STRESS is not my friend. I have to say that is probably the number one reason I overeat. Today started out stressful at home and continued that way at the office.
I'm tired and I'm cranky which made walking past a giant bag of tortilla chips and a container of Oreos someone brought to the office most challenging.
Why do people who want to get food that is bad for them out of their house always bring it to the office? I managed to avoid the snacks and and I had to take something to a client anyway so went for a walk instead.
It's weigh day followed by fat class tonight. After my weekend I am not sure I want to see the results but I'm going anyway. Wish me luck.
STRESS is not my friend. I have to say that is probably the number one reason I overeat. Today started out stressful at home and continued that way at the office.
I'm tired and I'm cranky which made walking past a giant bag of tortilla chips and a container of Oreos someone brought to the office most challenging.
Why do people who want to get food that is bad for them out of their house always bring it to the office? I managed to avoid the snacks and and I had to take something to a client anyway so went for a walk instead.
It's weigh day followed by fat class tonight. After my weekend I am not sure I want to see the results but I'm going anyway. Wish me luck.
Friday, July 9, 2010
MLWF Day 89
This is the eighty ninth day in my life without food.
Sometimes I feel like I am just whining but I have determined that what I am doing is not easy nor should it be. The body is very complicated and everyone is different. I know mine pretty darn well and I haven't treated it very well most years. It takes time to turn that around.
I just hope my body forgives my prior indiscretions and I can complete "the project" and move on. I hope to find a new respect for my body. I'll keep looking. People say you should treat your body like a temple while I have treated mine more like a drive thru at McDonald's...you know you shouldn't be there but you go there anyway because it's easy and quick.
Yesterday at work someone decided that ordering pizzas for a team event was a good idea and of course they ended up on the table outside my cubicle. I took one whiff and left the building. I miss pizza.
It's the weekend again. I do very well during the week when I have more structure in my life. The weekends are still hard. I keep doing the best I can.
I am very lucky to have much support during "the project" from my husband, friends and family. I know many don't understand just how hard this is for me but I know I can count on them. That's a nice feeling.
Sometimes I feel like I am just whining but I have determined that what I am doing is not easy nor should it be. The body is very complicated and everyone is different. I know mine pretty darn well and I haven't treated it very well most years. It takes time to turn that around.
I just hope my body forgives my prior indiscretions and I can complete "the project" and move on. I hope to find a new respect for my body. I'll keep looking. People say you should treat your body like a temple while I have treated mine more like a drive thru at McDonald's...you know you shouldn't be there but you go there anyway because it's easy and quick.
Yesterday at work someone decided that ordering pizzas for a team event was a good idea and of course they ended up on the table outside my cubicle. I took one whiff and left the building. I miss pizza.
It's the weekend again. I do very well during the week when I have more structure in my life. The weekends are still hard. I keep doing the best I can.
I am very lucky to have much support during "the project" from my husband, friends and family. I know many don't understand just how hard this is for me but I know I can count on them. That's a nice feeling.
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
MLWF Week 12
This is the twelfth week in my life without food.
OK, so week eleven wasn't totally without food. I took a few days off from "the project" to enjoy a little R & R with my husband. Once again, I didn't go as crazy as I could have gone but I did eat a little, drink a little and enjoy a few of the finer things in life. It was fun!
The more I can say no to certain old trigger foods the better I feel. If I don't eat the first chip I am fine. I miss chips and guacamole but I am getting by just fine without them.
It's weigh day followed by fat class. I keep thinking this is going to get easier but it's not going to. Same old decision every day, to eat or not to eat. Some days I make the "right" choices and some days I just have fun. That's life...damn it!
I am waiting for the scale to tell me how much fun I had. It rarely lies and as far as I am concerned it's just a number...wow, I almost believed that.
OK, so week eleven wasn't totally without food. I took a few days off from "the project" to enjoy a little R & R with my husband. Once again, I didn't go as crazy as I could have gone but I did eat a little, drink a little and enjoy a few of the finer things in life. It was fun!
The more I can say no to certain old trigger foods the better I feel. If I don't eat the first chip I am fine. I miss chips and guacamole but I am getting by just fine without them.
It's weigh day followed by fat class. I keep thinking this is going to get easier but it's not going to. Same old decision every day, to eat or not to eat. Some days I make the "right" choices and some days I just have fun. That's life...damn it!
I am waiting for the scale to tell me how much fun I had. It rarely lies and as far as I am concerned it's just a number...wow, I almost believed that.
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